Just got home from a ride on the bike, which served as a way to blow away all the bad MOJO in my head and the anger I felt before the ride. It doesn't look like I am going to get off next month to go with Tracy to his friend's wedding despite being told I would be off AND I have to work that day PLUS the day I traded with another co-worker to be off, which is not even my weekend and the co-worker still gets her Sunday OFF! I am irate and sick of nursing and all the sacrifice it requires. Yeeeesssss, I am blessed to have a good job and I appreciate that I am physically and mentally able to work BUT I am tired of always having to give up life for work. Holidays, weekends, special occasions, family time, all sacrificed on the altar of "this is a hospital and we are open around the clock and on and on...." So some motorcycle therapy blew all that anger out of my head and I feel better but still could cry because I so wanted to go with him. :( Gonna try to get some sun tomorrow and make some Vitamin D and hopefully that will raise my spirits.
Nikki came to see us today and we went out to eat Mexican and then showed her around the area. That took about 10 minutes LOL but we had a good time and enjoyed being with her. Went for a job interview where she works on Friday but don't think they can (or are willing to) afford me :) But it was a good experience and will continue on the job hunt for something closer because I am sick of driving 80 miles round trip every time I work and I am sick of almost mandatory overtime and disappointing promises.
I was happy there on my first day....now, not so much!
I am just gonna keep praying and hoping something will happen to change the inevitable. God is the expert at making ways where there are none :)
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