I guess if ya don't have much to say there's really no point in blogging. But I re-read my entire blog tonight and realized how nice it is to document my life even when it's mundane and boring, which honestly it is most all the time :)
Fall has arrived, pretty much peaked in an awesome color display, and winter will probably begin to sink its claws into us soon. I heard it is going to be 27 degrees in a night or two and this depressing time change has it dark by 4:30 or so. But fall has been beautiful and I will enjoy the last remaining days of it.
I think I'm kinda in a rut. A week or so ago I posted about a lost day and then last week was a lost week and now I'm heading in to another lost week and what's next? A lost month? Lol Everything feels unexciting and I don't have much energy. Walking is a HUGE drag which is unusual for me. It doesn't wear me out, I just don't wanna go in the first place. My weight loss is at a grinding, screeching stop and I've just lost interest. Work is okay but has not turned out exactly as I'd hoped so I am readjusting to the changes there. Like I said everything seems blah and mundane and it's kinda dumb to write about such nothingness.
Tracy is lost in his last 4 weeks of the semester where everything piles up at once and the end is so near but WAY too much to be done until then and although we are here at home together fairly frequently, I feel like we are ghosts to each other. He has so much to get done and we both look forward to December, when the semester ends, although a few weeks from that ending a new beginning starts...two years of nursing school. Oh me :)
Speaking of nursing school, I read an article in the Tennessee Nursing Association's newspaper about bullying in nursing school, the tremendous stress of nursing school, and in the field of nursing, in general and it made me sad and mad. Nursing school and then a career in nursing is a hard road to travel. There are rewards in nursing but there are many trials. I think because nursing is so full of psychopaths, it makes the professional difficult, even more difficult than it is to begin with.
I mean, think about it...who are the people who sign up to "nurse" others back to health? Sure there are some Clara Bartons and Florence Nightingales out there and hats off to them. But there are lots of insecure, codependent, needy people (women) in nursing and they make a tough profession worse. They are the ones who "eat their young," refuse to share their experience and knowledge with others, and are constantly backstabbing, complaining, and drag the profession down with their martyrdom. A person I work with told me recently, " You worked in ER, you can figure it out..."
Fortunately I could figure it out but not because they were willing to share their expertise and knowledge with me. Later I found they have angst toward RNs because they are an LPN and feel threatened by the difference. Sad, unprofessional, and a lack of mental health, I would say.
So I've decided to mentor some nursing students. One thing I've always loved doing is training new staff members because it is a perfect opportunity to influence them for good, both as an employee and as a professional. I love to teach by example and influence a nurse to recognize the good things about nursing. Yes, I'm often pretty burnt out myself after 26 years of it but never when I'm orienting someone.
I never complain or speak negatively about my profession when I am training someone. I take pride in what I do and that I do it well and want to share that with them. Now that I'm in a new area of nursing I won't be training anyone for awhile, so I think I will try mentoring. I'm gonna read about what makes a good mentor and then give it a try. I'll let ya know how it goes. Tracy may be my guinea pig lol
Gonna get some sleep so perhaps tomorrow won't be lost...but who knows? Love, love, love!
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